might be moving

Kirk has been putting apps in for jobs all over just to see what would happen. Well he made the certs for a job in OK. He was interviewed and they loved him,but there was a date wrong in one spot on his app and hr didn't catch it even though it was right everywhere else. So he should never have made the cert.They are reposting the job so they can legely hire him. Even so it is still just a maybe thing. We told my mom last night that there is a chance we will be moving. She has already started freaking out and laying on the guilt.That is the whole reason I didn't tell her sooner. I just didn't want to deal with all the stress it is causing and maybe for nothing. Up till now there really wasn't anything to tell. Heck there still might not be. He has to make this cert and then beat out the other people that apply.The only thing in his favor at this point is they have already interviewed him. Doesn't mean he will make the cert of be the best for the job once they post it again.I am looking at everything from different views. We both have thought all this through. Yes it will be hard to be away from everyone,but I have done it before when Kirk was in the Navy and he didn't even come home every night then. I know how hard it is not to have family close by. I also know that I don't spend much time with them anyway. Yeah we go to the gym from time to time and the kids are attached. Heck the 2 little ones don't know anything but this house, Joey only remembers ever being in Ky.There will alot of adjusting for everyone.Deosn't mean we wont get through it or haven't thought it all through. At this point we are going on with our lives as if there isn't even a job out there.I still plane on starting college on the 17th.The kids are starting school on Thursday and Haley starts on the 24th. I wanted to have the bypass surgery to lose weight.That I am putting on hold until we find something out. I wouldn't have had the surgery until Christmas anyway. So I have time to wait a few months at that before I have to start it all.
It wont be all that much harder finding a babysitter out there as it is here. No one wants to keep my kids.They all bad mouth Joey. Yes he is a handful,but still none of them want him around.Jessie watches the kids now when we need someone.True Jessie doesn't take change well but we really haven't changed all that much stuff with her since she was 7. She understands all this and acepts it.Doesn't mean she has to love the idea. I think her biggest complaint is that she wont get to date Scott Miller before we move if we do.I just wish things would go back to normal. Mom isn't even talking to me.I mean come on we don't even know we are going anywhere. Mom did email and asked if a little more money and time with Kirk was worth moving away from family.The thing is that is mostly about getting kirk into the field he has a degree and certs for.Here he doesn't even have that option so with him doing what he is it looks bad on his resume. How does that help anyone? It doesn't and he isn't happy in the field he is working in now.I just really don't know what to do with it all at this point. I hate people being upset with me.But on average with the exception of my mom I see the rest of the family 10 times a year, other then church and you really can't call that seeing them.Even when we have the potlucks at church they never sit with us.Mom says I wasn't happy when we didn't live close by.News flash I'm on anti depresants now.The biggest reason I moved to Ky was to be with my little brothers and they never really spent much time with us even after we moved here and now Steven is 20 and David is 18. Only a handful of people in the family like Kirk and that in itself is hard on me, and mom is not one of them. So I don't even have an outlet to complain about the stuff he pulls.so that wont be any different except they will like him less now.But I look at it all like this. The Lord had to have a hand in that app getting messes up so he made a cert he should have never made. The amish are interested in renting this place if we move so we can keep it so we have it if we come back.Things are just falling into place. If that is where we are meant to be for the time being the the Lord will put us there.I have to trust he knows what he is doing. He sees the big picture not us.