Haley's first day of pre school

This morning she got up and was all excited about going. I sent them all out to the bus and stood on the porch to watch them. she turned just before the bus got there and said "I love you mom" I wanted to cry. My baby is getting to big. rMom and I went to pick her up and go to the pool.Well he thanked me for picking her up and then she started singing "Shoe fight don't bother me" we laughed and told her it was "shoe fly" took us forever to convence her it was fly. then just now I told her to pick up a tortilla shell that she dried out and smashed on the floor. She did and went to throw it away and then came back to the living room going ouch ouch ouch. She said"When I was picking up that tortilla shell I droped it on my foot" I told her it didn't hurt.She said "yes it does it hit my vein." I about died.

I'll be alright

While giving Haley her bath tonight we were talking about her starting pre school on Monday. I asked her if she was excited. She told me yes so I asked her about riding the bus and getting to sit with Jessie. She said cause she is my bus monitor. I told her yes and she asked me why she needed one. I told her it was Jessie's job to make sure she was safe. She then told me she didn't want a monitor that she would be alright.

horses,puppies, and Haley

This morning I went to let Beauty and Storm out of their stall only to find that the door was part way open and Storm was out already. So I let Beauty out and then decided if I could catch her again I would bring them up front to eat the grass.I cought her and they came without a problem.Well Serena (my sister) brought her 2 kids puppies over to mom's last night so Haley and I had to go get them. I told her I would keep them for a few days.Haley is in love and wants to keep em.She gets all upset when they play fight.Anyway when we got home I noticed that Storm was in the big field again and mommy was still up front.The only thing I can think is that she jumped the fence. Not sure how a 2 month old baby horse jumped a 4 foot fence but if she did I am so getting her and Jessie into jumping.
This morning while Haley was watching deigo a commercial came on for dove soap and it had a woman in the shower with all her clothes on. Haley said "mom she has all her clothes on, humans don't take showers with their clothes on."

School has started

Well the older kids started school this morning. Can't believe how fast the summer went. Haley doesn't start till the 24th of this month. She is excited. I thought she would throw a fit this morning when the kids left but not at all. She stood at the window waving bye to them.

might be moving

Kirk has been putting apps in for jobs all over just to see what would happen. Well he made the certs for a job in OK. He was interviewed and they loved him,but there was a date wrong in one spot on his app and hr didn't catch it even though it was right everywhere else. So he should never have made the cert.They are reposting the job so they can legely hire him. Even so it is still just a maybe thing. We told my mom last night that there is a chance we will be moving. She has already started freaking out and laying on the guilt.That is the whole reason I didn't tell her sooner. I just didn't want to deal with all the stress it is causing and maybe for nothing. Up till now there really wasn't anything to tell. Heck there still might not be. He has to make this cert and then beat out the other people that apply.The only thing in his favor at this point is they have already interviewed him. Doesn't mean he will make the cert of be the best for the job once they post it again.I am looking at everything from different views. We both have thought all this through. Yes it will be hard to be away from everyone,but I have done it before when Kirk was in the Navy and he didn't even come home every night then. I know how hard it is not to have family close by. I also know that I don't spend much time with them anyway. Yeah we go to the gym from time to time and the kids are attached. Heck the 2 little ones don't know anything but this house, Joey only remembers ever being in Ky.There will alot of adjusting for everyone.Deosn't mean we wont get through it or haven't thought it all through. At this point we are going on with our lives as if there isn't even a job out there.I still plane on starting college on the 17th.The kids are starting school on Thursday and Haley starts on the 24th. I wanted to have the bypass surgery to lose weight.That I am putting on hold until we find something out. I wouldn't have had the surgery until Christmas anyway. So I have time to wait a few months at that before I have to start it all.
It wont be all that much harder finding a babysitter out there as it is here. No one wants to keep my kids.They all bad mouth Joey. Yes he is a handful,but still none of them want him around.Jessie watches the kids now when we need someone.True Jessie doesn't take change well but we really haven't changed all that much stuff with her since she was 7. She understands all this and acepts it.Doesn't mean she has to love the idea. I think her biggest complaint is that she wont get to date Scott Miller before we move if we do.I just wish things would go back to normal. Mom isn't even talking to me.I mean come on we don't even know we are going anywhere. Mom did email and asked if a little more money and time with Kirk was worth moving away from family.The thing is that is mostly about getting kirk into the field he has a degree and certs for.Here he doesn't even have that option so with him doing what he is it looks bad on his resume. How does that help anyone? It doesn't and he isn't happy in the field he is working in now.I just really don't know what to do with it all at this point. I hate people being upset with me.But on average with the exception of my mom I see the rest of the family 10 times a year, other then church and you really can't call that seeing them.Even when we have the potlucks at church they never sit with us.Mom says I wasn't happy when we didn't live close by.News flash I'm on anti depresants now.The biggest reason I moved to Ky was to be with my little brothers and they never really spent much time with us even after we moved here and now Steven is 20 and David is 18. Only a handful of people in the family like Kirk and that in itself is hard on me, and mom is not one of them. So I don't even have an outlet to complain about the stuff he pulls.so that wont be any different except they will like him less now.But I look at it all like this. The Lord had to have a hand in that app getting messes up so he made a cert he should have never made. The amish are interested in renting this place if we move so we can keep it so we have it if we come back.Things are just falling into place. If that is where we are meant to be for the time being the the Lord will put us there.I have to trust he knows what he is doing. He sees the big picture not us.

Haley's surgery

Well over all it went alright. I knew right away that something was wrong. It took way longer then it should have and when Dr. Mimms came out to talk to us he took us to a consulation room. He has NEVER done that before. He told us that her right ear drum is too thin to get a ear tube to stay in, and not to be surprised if in the future she has to have recontructive surgery for that drum. Not something I even want to think about. She also had her tonsilles and adnoids removed this time. We are 3 days out and she is really bouncy back fast. Well with the playing and stuff. she still doesn't want to eat or drink.We keep telling her to drink.She wants to go outside so bad and every time the other kids go out she cries and says it is not fair. I feel so bad for her.
When we were doing the pre-op stuff she was cracking us up. They gave her some meds to help calm her down and when they really took affect her head was bobbing and eyes were rolling.She had a pulse ox thing on her finger and it turns your finger red. She finally laid down and was fasinated with her red finger. She was moving it all around real slow watching it. You could tell she was really druged up.
Jessie and I went to wal-mart on Friday the day after h er surgery and on the way home I stoped at Mcdonalds to get her a milkshake and Jessie asked if she could have her tonsilles removed. I told her no and that it was painful. She asked how painful and I told her they are cutting in your throught how bad do you think? She told me I don't know so I passed on the info that her grandmother had it done at 17 and it was very painful. So she changed her mind but asked if we could pretend she had it done and baby her like that. I had to laugh and then told her no.